Jho's Place

After Processing

I just got back from talking to a therapist I check in with. Basically I realized the lesson I needed to learn from the slip I had is to SLOW DOWN. I give myself a lot of grief because I feel that I am intellegent enough to be able to get 'this.' I want it all to happen now. I want to do what I know I am capable of immediately instead of reminding myself that it took me 30 years to get to who I am now, and it will probably take 30 more to reverse all of that. I wish as a young folk I didn't need to learn things for myself, espeically since how I choose to cope from childhood to this adult life rarely was "healthy." I am trying to step back and I admit it's tough. I want to show the world just how much I have to give, and I want them to respect me for it NOW! Yea, that never worked in the past for me either.

posted by makeisweet @ 10:06 AM