Jho's Place

I don't think I want to go to Chicago

I think I have found a sneaky way that I can still write my Blog here at work. Sure maybe the IT people may read this, but I am sure if they really wanted to they could have found my Blog site if they wanted to. Hell, my sister did. : ) So, I am writing this on my work e-mail so if the spies start looking over my shoulder, as they do, I will be alright. How are they to know if I am writing something for a work related thing or if I am doing something "personal." I mean we all do things at work that help us maintain our sanity throughout the day. This is a benefit to the company really. I do better work by expressing myself. Let me hear a "hoo haa" two times Tuesdays!

Let me say real quick the thing that has been on my mind a lot lately. I don't want to go to Chicago. I already have a plan ticket, got a super cheap hotel and a super cheap rental car. The Hotel is in Oak Grove Village (I know I never heard of it either) which I found out, through research, is right by this huge Forest Preserve called Busse Park. It has a herd of Elk even that roams it. I thought I could also take a trip over to the Botanic Gardens because I hear it's beautiful. It's not that far of a drive and is free! It's just the parking is $12. I laughed when I read that it was free to get in but you have to pay to park. On the bus, here at home, I ended up riding with my downstairs neighbor Joe and we briefly talked about Chicago and he said Amanda, the condo owner - he lives with her, and went to the Chicago Institute of Art. That reminded me I never spent as much time as I wanted to there and I would love to just spend a few hours in the Impressionist exhibit. There is so much to do and see in Chicago, but when you have never traveled on your own before, a good friend isn't talking to you at the moment, you know you will feel the need to stop in to your EX's work because, "It's just in my personality. I can't just go somewhere and know someone I care about is there and just not stop in to say hi. I even do that for people I don't like that much or at all.... when the trip was never meant to be about that; and then there is the other EX who I want to make sure no hanky panky happens with, but know I would have fun hanging out with if they don't flake out, well it kind of gets me down on a daily basis. I have told friends, "It's just money, and it's already gone so it does not affect my finances anymore really, so I can always just not go." I bought the airplane ticket so I would not avoid Chicago because Josh lives there, and now I have lost a piece of my support network because, well, frankly I used up every last piece they had for me. I could go on forever about this because I really do at some point in the day think about the trip and dread it. Sometimes I perk up and think of the cool things I could do which happens when I research things.

Well, let's see how this works posting this on the blog now.

posted by makeisweet @ 8:02 AM